What did He say to you (Church Camp)

I know we would be sharing it in coming cg, but I wanted to post here anyways. Since not many people will see it, and its also good to share it here too.


So here's mine:


新酒要装在新酒皮袋里。


During saturday night ministering, after Ps Wilson's teaching. There was an alter call about the gift of prophecy. I quickly ran down and to the front, right hand side of Pastor Wilson. I was one of the first there.


I really wanted it, not for myself, but for Jesus, and also His people. I wanted to be the bridge, to connect God's Word, God's will, God's heart to people.


As I was one of the first, I was at the first row, Ps Lai Ling Lim was just in front of me. At first I was a little disappointed because she didnt pray for me, but I knew, I was praying to God, He was the one who gives. Later a brother came to pray for me. Somehow, he knew my hunger, how eager I was, how much I wanted it. And he also told me, be close to God. "Be close to God", this was the same message given to me by many previous prayers by other brothers and sisters. I am not sure if I have received it, thats why I kept quiet and stayed back. In my heart, I kept the faith that God had already given it to me.


On my way home, after sending Charles and Leong Ling home, after discussing some problems with them, I realised that my life and many things around me are actually not that "bright" or "good" or "optimistic". Everything seems crumbling, and in the process crushing me.


So how is all this related to "新酒要装在新酒皮袋里"? New wine, is the anointing of God, which is also the Gift. And as you guessed it, I am the wine skin. I need to be new too, if I want to receive the gift. And new wine cannot be put in old wine skin as it will break. So I prayed to God. Turn me new, newer than before, because I really need it. I need it so I can accommodate the new wine, I want to be the new wine skin!

Bugging me lately

Something's inside my head, bugging me lately. It was all because of a dream, that had rekindled this troublesome feeling. Why must it always be dreams? The 1st time, the 2nd time, and now the 3rd time.

Though I dont remember what or how the dream was, but I clearly remember who the dream was about. Yeah, its my dream girl again, again.

Why~ Why~ I have to ask... Now Im like stalker mode and all weird again. This is not a good sign and definitely not good for my current situation at all.

It's impossible, dream for a reason, because its impossible. More impossible than normal impossible that we normally speak about. I thought I had already let it go, but all it took was another dream.

I have other priorities, other things that are more important that I need to focus at, but why... I dont need this, geez...

Anyways, I wanna type this down sort of like a journal, so I can read back and recall the past events of my teenage life.

Should I bang my head against the wall?

Problems, problems, problems. I'm sure everybody hates them, but somehow, they always seems t bounce back to you. I know its kinda naive thinking, why everything wouldn't just go smoothly.

So now, I present to you, my problems.

1. There's a few assignments that gonna be due next week, and without Flash, Illustrator and Photoshop, I couldn't do a thing without them. So if I cant do it at home, I'll just do it in school. With my ID problem, couldn't access the open labs and I have to go 6th floor and bla bla bla, but I couldn't, because I have to change my ID to the new one (foundation -> degree), but that would take a long time. Then I borrowed Calvyn's ID. So I went school, made 3 rounds around the place just to look for a parking space. Guess what, open labs have no Photoshop, no Illustrator and no Flash, and the Multimedia open lab is not so "open" with lecturer's always using it for classes.

2. Its never easy being a shepherd, and lately, seems like some BGR problems coming up. Now how am I gonna talk to them about it? Will they open up? Will it be settled? Can I really help them? How will they feel if I keep asking them about the matter?

I'm not being ungrateful or negative or what. I'm just addressing the facts and figuring a way to solve them. If you can help me, especially with problem 1 (you have Photoshop, Illustrator and Flash CS4), please do, because I really really really need it!

义卖会 宣传

A video I made (directed, shot and edited) for the publicity of our sale item during our church sales, where the funds to go help brothers and sisters who wanna go to MNC.

Thank you Sophia, Ivy, Sebastian, Charles, Albert, Jason, Ik Fui, Lin Sun, Muk Fui, Leong Ling and Ai Lian.

Locations used where Sophia's house and Stutong Park. Shot on 13/3/2010. Newest update 17/3/2010

Sorry about the poor quality, blur video and poor sound for the second song, I had already tried my best to fix it...

Ability Shop

You might be wondering, what ability shop. Well, its a manga I just read. Look below.

(From onemanga.com)

Summary

Toshiki is a below average student and often the target of ridicule. He accidentally runs into a shop sign and breaks it, when he enters the shop he finds out it will sell him abilities.. But these abilities don't come cheap.

http://www.onemanga.com/Ability_Shop/

If abilities could be bought, I'd buy the ability to evangelize. In the manga, customers pay with their remaining life span. And I said to myself, I'd pay any price to have the ability to evangelize. But then, just like our life span, if we spend time to develop an ability, isnt it the same as "buying" them with our life span? So maybe, I would not "pay any price to obtain the ability" hahahaha. However, ever since I came to know Christ, my biggest desire is to evangelize. Biggest desire because it is the one thing that I wanna do and cannot do well. I really wanna see my family, relatives, friends and all the people around me come to know God, the same God that I know. So I guess, I better start spending time and effort to develop this ability, the ability to evangelize!

Uni Reopen

University, or school is what I prefer to call it, is gonna reopen soon. I've had a super long holiday, and it wasnt as easy as I had expected. I've had my share of yelling and lecturing and bla bla bla from my parents (which I do hear and pay attention to) for not working during the holidays. I know I kept on saying Im not lazy, I just want a work that doesnt touch my Friday nights (prayer meeting), Saturday nights (care group) and Sunday mornings (Sunday service), but there is also this one thing, I didnt go on a job hunt...

Okay~ now back to school reopen matters, since I have morning classes for the coming sem, I have to adjust my time back to normal. I had been sleeping real late and I mean really really really late and waking up real late too (this one also very very very late).

Other than that, Im gonna get a hair cut because I dont like my current hair, though Im lazy to go out, I have to and I will.

New sem, gonna be in Degree. Thinking of how I could be salt and light again... To those of you who have no idea what Im talking about, ignore this(hahaha). And those who do, just keep quiet. I really really wanna see it happen, it as in (Im not gonna tell you, if you know you know, if you dont then dont).

And oh yeah, Multimedia Design, drawing, me no gurd, me bead draw, like smlla kib, no draw, safe me. Oh well, I guess I can learn. Still better than learning codes I presume...

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010

I know its a little late writing this post since its already at the end of February, but looking back at the old posts, I decided to write one anyways.

2009 to me, was the worst year of my life. Seriously, Im not exaggerating about it. Due to some very personal issues, I dont feel comfortable sharing it. Just proves how bad a trauma it is to me. I just couldnt wait for it to pass any sooner. Lets see the effects, I sleep late (real late), I wasted half a year of my life (including 3k money), and some horrible horrible sins.

I dunno if I had paid enough for what I did, but I really did suffer a lot.

Thank God for a new year, where I can throw everything away, get new hope and also a new start. Its very important to me because I really need it, due to the horrible events of 2009 of course.

And praise Him for His faithfulness, the year started awesome and has been great until now. But I know sooner or later something is gonna rock my boat, because thats just life. Its God's way of making me a better person, and I know it. All I ask is that He be with me all in all.

Guess I'll be signing off here, peace out~