Bugging me lately

Something's inside my head, bugging me lately. It was all because of a dream, that had rekindled this troublesome feeling. Why must it always be dreams? The 1st time, the 2nd time, and now the 3rd time.

Though I dont remember what or how the dream was, but I clearly remember who the dream was about. Yeah, its my dream girl again, again.

Why~ Why~ I have to ask... Now Im like stalker mode and all weird again. This is not a good sign and definitely not good for my current situation at all.

It's impossible, dream for a reason, because its impossible. More impossible than normal impossible that we normally speak about. I thought I had already let it go, but all it took was another dream.

I have other priorities, other things that are more important that I need to focus at, but why... I dont need this, geez...

Anyways, I wanna type this down sort of like a journal, so I can read back and recall the past events of my teenage life.

Should I bang my head against the wall?

Problems, problems, problems. I'm sure everybody hates them, but somehow, they always seems t bounce back to you. I know its kinda naive thinking, why everything wouldn't just go smoothly.

So now, I present to you, my problems.

1. There's a few assignments that gonna be due next week, and without Flash, Illustrator and Photoshop, I couldn't do a thing without them. So if I cant do it at home, I'll just do it in school. With my ID problem, couldn't access the open labs and I have to go 6th floor and bla bla bla, but I couldn't, because I have to change my ID to the new one (foundation -> degree), but that would take a long time. Then I borrowed Calvyn's ID. So I went school, made 3 rounds around the place just to look for a parking space. Guess what, open labs have no Photoshop, no Illustrator and no Flash, and the Multimedia open lab is not so "open" with lecturer's always using it for classes.

2. Its never easy being a shepherd, and lately, seems like some BGR problems coming up. Now how am I gonna talk to them about it? Will they open up? Will it be settled? Can I really help them? How will they feel if I keep asking them about the matter?

I'm not being ungrateful or negative or what. I'm just addressing the facts and figuring a way to solve them. If you can help me, especially with problem 1 (you have Photoshop, Illustrator and Flash CS4), please do, because I really really really need it!