21/9/2008
I received 3 messages from 3 different people, yet somehow it all seemed as though they are linked. To investigate and figure what is the real hidden message trying to be passed to me, I'll list down every possible connection here in order to analyze things.
Message 1
Eric from Sibu, 4:31pm
"Hiroshi" in japanese, Your name actually meant: "The Noble One" or "The Brave One". How are you today?
My reply: Wow cool. Thanks bro. Awesome today.
Message 2
义升 from Sibu, 5:16pm
昨天有一位天使告诉我说我很久没给一个人祝福了。我听了吓了一跳！原来我还没献祝福的人是正在按手机的你。现在让我献上我最诚心的祝福给幸福的你=)
My reply: 哈哈，谢谢你。
Message 3
Wendy currently at Labuan, 9:08pm
HE had no servants but they called HIM Master. No Degree, but they called HIM TEACHER. No Medicine, but they called HIM HEALER. No army, but Kings feared HIM. HE won no Military Battles, but HE Conquered the World. HE Committed no Crime, but they Crucified HIM. He was Buried in a Tomb, but is ALIVE TODAY. HE is Humble, but will Always be Exalted. HIS name is JESUS. He is THE LORD, our HOPE & GUIDE. GOD BLESS.
My reply: Wow, great message. Awesome reminder. Thanks!
Where should I begin?
For starters, the common thing about these 3 people is that they are all far away from me, not here with me. All 3 of them are Christians. I could get the message in the sms individually, but I couldn't link them together. I'm sure these people didn't make a deal or something, but yet somehow I just feel that these 3 messages are linked, are trying to tell me something.
Perhaps someday, when I look back, I might get the 'hidden' message on these 3 sms.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
Summary of 1st Half Semester
Without knowing it, half a semester has already passed, that's 8 weeks. Wooooo what a milestone. Let's take a look at things.
1. Academically - I did quite good for. English 8/10. Innovation 12.5/15. Math 18.9/20. IT and programming are n/a. Praise God and all the best for Him, I will continue to bring Him glory.
2. Habits - I was always late. But thanks to someone, I start to come a little earlier, though I need to change even more.
3. Emotion - Woah what a roller coaster ride. Yes there was sweetness and of course hurt, but overall it helped me grow, to be a better person. Couldn't deny that there was a lot of suffering and struggling, but I'm still standing. Whatever that doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.
4. First time in my life that I didn't sleep the whole night. That's a first in my entire life. my first Swinburne assignment, a great innovation - innovation in mobile phone.
5. From a place where I am a stranger to a place where I would hang out. I remember it took me sometime before I would go to the library, the cafeteria, common lounge and student hostel. Took me like two weeks or so but I did it.
6. From a quiet, shy and cool person to a noisy, friendly and still cool person, or so I think. Made a few friends whom I, honestly, didn't initially like.
7. Got distracted from my goal and target for some time. Spiritual life backslided. Didn't be salt and light. Showed some really bad attitude and examples.
So that pretty much sums up my 1st half semester in Swinburne. Too bad we don't have break. More is yet to come and I hope I can 'survive' it all in one piece. All glory to God!
1. Academically - I did quite good for. English 8/10. Innovation 12.5/15. Math 18.9/20. IT and programming are n/a. Praise God and all the best for Him, I will continue to bring Him glory.
2. Habits - I was always late. But thanks to someone, I start to come a little earlier, though I need to change even more.
3. Emotion - Woah what a roller coaster ride. Yes there was sweetness and of course hurt, but overall it helped me grow, to be a better person. Couldn't deny that there was a lot of suffering and struggling, but I'm still standing. Whatever that doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.
4. First time in my life that I didn't sleep the whole night. That's a first in my entire life. my first Swinburne assignment, a great innovation - innovation in mobile phone.
5. From a place where I am a stranger to a place where I would hang out. I remember it took me sometime before I would go to the library, the cafeteria, common lounge and student hostel. Took me like two weeks or so but I did it.
6. From a quiet, shy and cool person to a noisy, friendly and still cool person, or so I think. Made a few friends whom I, honestly, didn't initially like.
7. Got distracted from my goal and target for some time. Spiritual life backslided. Didn't be salt and light. Showed some really bad attitude and examples.
So that pretty much sums up my 1st half semester in Swinburne. Too bad we don't have break. More is yet to come and I hope I can 'survive' it all in one piece. All glory to God!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Strangely and funnily
Quite strangely and funnily, I stumbled upon the word Girl Next Door. I remember about the survey done in English class which was What is your dream knight/girl. So I was curios and I went to find out. I first went to Wikipedia but couldn't understand/imagine/portray the version of Girl Next Door it said. Then I scrolled down to External links part. Strangely and funnily again, I went to AskMen.com. I mean, what better way to know it than to go many men.
So this was what it says:
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Most guys are attracted to the all-night, uber-party girl. But eventually, our focus shifts toward someone with whom we can settle down.
Typically, we look for the wholesome, naturally pretty, more demure female who we've come to know as "the girl next door." Somehow she embodies all of our more mature and tamer instincts: marriage, children and tender companionship. The main difference in our thinking is that her qualities are just as important to us as her looks.
But the million-dollar question is: does she really exist or has the collective male psyche created her only to be an unattainable dream? Let's find out why this down-home cutie is on our fantasy list and discover what we can do to confirm or debunk the myth of the girl next door.
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who is the girl next door?
First, allow me to define her.
Every guy may have his specific girl-next-door prototype, but in general, she's the girl whom you always admired from afar and were afraid to approach, fearing that any erotic projection toward her would ruin her image as a decent, pure and almost virginal womanly ideal. Think of Renee Zellweger's character in Jerry Maguire .
She's (in your mind at least) untrodden ground; unspoiled by other men and so sweet-natured it almost frightens you to think of her in explicit sexual situations. Almost . Here's another example: Picture your sister's best friend from when you were kids. In your mind she'll always be that 10-year-old cutie who played with you in the park. Only, when you catch up with her 10 years later, she's still a cutie, but all grown up and someone you can trust and connect with on so many new levels. The intrigue grows.
Similarly, she could be a friend's cousin whom you met at family occasions over the years. Or even a new employee at work who is shy and unassuming, but still gives you that "she seems so nice, I'd love to talk to her" feeling.
Get the picture yet?
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what do we like about her?
There are so many characteristics of the girl-next-door type that qualify as "good" or virtuous. These are things we've come to look for in a woman, which earn the respect of our male sensitive side.
She's a homebody. She cooks, cleans and is not afraid of being at home, helping out with chores. Plus, she's not a fan of clubbing. She thinks the nightclub scene consists of horny drunks and game players who don't live honestly. And after all the not-so-great game players you've dated, this is a refreshing, alluring and potentially life-altering change for your dating scenario.
She's nurturing and sweet. Unlike so many of the women you've dated who had militant stances against being nice to you simply because you were a man, she's understanding of your needs and is willing to take care of you when you're sick. Her sweet demeanor -- and knowing that what goes around comes around -- makes you want to be with her and take care of her in kind.
She doesn't attract attention. She's "under the radar," so to speak. Guys won't hit on her everywhere you go; not because she's unattractive, but because she prefers to remain low-key, both in her appearance and her attitude. She's neither a flirt nor is she flashy; but she has that natural beauty that doesn't require coats of makeup.
She's predictable, but this could also be one of her flaws.
She's predictable and safe. What you see is what you get. You'll always know where you stand with her, as well as where she stands on any given topic. There's no guesswork involved and that makes her a welcome change from all the women who've played head games with you before.
She's low maintenance. This is one of her best qualities. You won't have to constantly buy her jewelry and other such gifts to keep her interested. She even enjoys just slumming-it for a night in or out with you. Jeans and a T-shirt are fashionable enough for a stroll around town. But here's the kicker: when the occasion calls for it, she dresses to the nines.
She has family values. Because she comes from a solid family upbringing, she believes in the importance of family. If you ever want to be a dad, this is the woman you want as the mother of your children.
She has a good personality. Although this is not something you'd want to hear about someone you're meeting on a blind date, the girl next door is easygoing and able to joke around with you about all kinds of topics. You can go anywhere with her and never get annoyed. She doesn't complain, but she does speak her mind honestly and with respect for your feelings.
She's trustworthy and reliable. You can take her word to the bank. If she tells you she is going to do something or be somewhere, it's set in stone. You could give her your credit cards and never worry that she'll overspend. Now that's a headache you'll be glad to avoid.
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so what's wrong with her?
You know the old adage, "if it's too good to be true, it probably is"? That can also apply to the girl next door. Despite all the good qualities that I've ascribed to her, there are still some things to take into consideration -- things that may displace her from the pedestal I've so readily put her on.
She's not a challenge. Let's face it; after some time with her, you may become bored. If you usually enjoy the spice that comes with a certain amount of frustration in a relationship, then she will not be the one to scratch the confrontational itch. Once you have her, the chase is over and you may eventually view her as a steadfast nuisance more than the sweet girl you thought you found.
She's predictable and safe. If you don't like spontaneity, then this isn't a problem. However, because she will never waver from the tried and true habits and experiences, you might have a problem spicing up your relationship just when you feel it's most crucial to do so. Can you say vanilla sex ?
She might be playing you. The worst possible thing to discover is that this was all an act. She really is that wild child party girl who sucked you in with the "nice girl" facade, and all of a sudden, you're back playing the same relationship games that drove you to her in the first place.
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knock on her door
By now you surely know why you've been smitten with the girl-next-door type. It shouldn't be too hard to get out there and ask for a cup of sugar from that sweet thing who moved in across the hall or street. After all those women who messed with your heart before, it's now time to get some stable, honest, neighborly love.
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Well honestly speaking, I didn't finish reading the whole thing before posting this, I only copy paste. I've only read the definition part and I guess Girl Next Door is my type because of my honesty and naiveness. I get this feeling I'm not gonna be a great boyfriend who will bring much excitement to a relationship, but instead a great husband who is steady, loving and caring.
I know that I'm still young and not thinking about this stuff, but I guess is good to know myself better. Cheers!
I edited this post 15 minuted after I posted it, whatever comes out after this is the edited part. Strangely and funnily, I went to check out the meaning of Guy Next Door.
From Urban Dictionary.
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Basically the same sort of thing as a girl next door. He's sweet, charming, and quite cute, although he doesn't seem to know it.
Guys next door don't really dig the whole taking advantage of a girl thing, and although able to be one of the lads, they can be great mates with girls as well.
They dress casually, and although they don't try to stand out in the crowd or be the centre of attention, they still shine.
Guy's next door usually have one of those laughs or smiles that is able to make you feel instantly happier.
As part of a relationship, guys next door are typically the kind who seem quite casual about dating- they don't try it on fast. But, as with a girl next door, the guy isn't seen as being that involved in a relationship... but anyone who's been in one with a guy next door will know that they're dark horses, and alot more fun and passionate than you first thought.
So if you find a guy next door (and you happen to be a girl next door)... this one's a keeper.
Bring him home to the parents no problem!
Seth, from the O.C is a bit of a guy next door....although he's got a bit of a nerd thing going on
(despite that......mmmmmmmm!!!)
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A guy known for his kind, sensitive, caring personality rather than his good looks and charm. Usually a bit of a geek or nerd, the guy next door is the guy who is a really good friend to girls, but who never gets a romantic relationship with said "girl friends". Usually is very shy and reserved.
1. He's kind of the guy next door; he's a great friend, but I just can't picture something happening with us.
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Talk about knowing more about myself, I guess I'm a Guy Next Door. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. But anyways, cheers!
So this was what it says:
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Most guys are attracted to the all-night, uber-party girl. But eventually, our focus shifts toward someone with whom we can settle down.
Typically, we look for the wholesome, naturally pretty, more demure female who we've come to know as "the girl next door." Somehow she embodies all of our more mature and tamer instincts: marriage, children and tender companionship. The main difference in our thinking is that her qualities are just as important to us as her looks.
But the million-dollar question is: does she really exist or has the collective male psyche created her only to be an unattainable dream? Let's find out why this down-home cutie is on our fantasy list and discover what we can do to confirm or debunk the myth of the girl next door.
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who is the girl next door?
First, allow me to define her.
Every guy may have his specific girl-next-door prototype, but in general, she's the girl whom you always admired from afar and were afraid to approach, fearing that any erotic projection toward her would ruin her image as a decent, pure and almost virginal womanly ideal. Think of Renee Zellweger's character in Jerry Maguire .
She's (in your mind at least) untrodden ground; unspoiled by other men and so sweet-natured it almost frightens you to think of her in explicit sexual situations. Almost . Here's another example: Picture your sister's best friend from when you were kids. In your mind she'll always be that 10-year-old cutie who played with you in the park. Only, when you catch up with her 10 years later, she's still a cutie, but all grown up and someone you can trust and connect with on so many new levels. The intrigue grows.
Similarly, she could be a friend's cousin whom you met at family occasions over the years. Or even a new employee at work who is shy and unassuming, but still gives you that "she seems so nice, I'd love to talk to her" feeling.
Get the picture yet?
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what do we like about her?
There are so many characteristics of the girl-next-door type that qualify as "good" or virtuous. These are things we've come to look for in a woman, which earn the respect of our male sensitive side.
She's a homebody. She cooks, cleans and is not afraid of being at home, helping out with chores. Plus, she's not a fan of clubbing. She thinks the nightclub scene consists of horny drunks and game players who don't live honestly. And after all the not-so-great game players you've dated, this is a refreshing, alluring and potentially life-altering change for your dating scenario.
She's nurturing and sweet. Unlike so many of the women you've dated who had militant stances against being nice to you simply because you were a man, she's understanding of your needs and is willing to take care of you when you're sick. Her sweet demeanor -- and knowing that what goes around comes around -- makes you want to be with her and take care of her in kind.
She doesn't attract attention. She's "under the radar," so to speak. Guys won't hit on her everywhere you go; not because she's unattractive, but because she prefers to remain low-key, both in her appearance and her attitude. She's neither a flirt nor is she flashy; but she has that natural beauty that doesn't require coats of makeup.
She's predictable, but this could also be one of her flaws.
She's predictable and safe. What you see is what you get. You'll always know where you stand with her, as well as where she stands on any given topic. There's no guesswork involved and that makes her a welcome change from all the women who've played head games with you before.
She's low maintenance. This is one of her best qualities. You won't have to constantly buy her jewelry and other such gifts to keep her interested. She even enjoys just slumming-it for a night in or out with you. Jeans and a T-shirt are fashionable enough for a stroll around town. But here's the kicker: when the occasion calls for it, she dresses to the nines.
She has family values. Because she comes from a solid family upbringing, she believes in the importance of family. If you ever want to be a dad, this is the woman you want as the mother of your children.
She has a good personality. Although this is not something you'd want to hear about someone you're meeting on a blind date, the girl next door is easygoing and able to joke around with you about all kinds of topics. You can go anywhere with her and never get annoyed. She doesn't complain, but she does speak her mind honestly and with respect for your feelings.
She's trustworthy and reliable. You can take her word to the bank. If she tells you she is going to do something or be somewhere, it's set in stone. You could give her your credit cards and never worry that she'll overspend. Now that's a headache you'll be glad to avoid.
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so what's wrong with her?
You know the old adage, "if it's too good to be true, it probably is"? That can also apply to the girl next door. Despite all the good qualities that I've ascribed to her, there are still some things to take into consideration -- things that may displace her from the pedestal I've so readily put her on.
She's not a challenge. Let's face it; after some time with her, you may become bored. If you usually enjoy the spice that comes with a certain amount of frustration in a relationship, then she will not be the one to scratch the confrontational itch. Once you have her, the chase is over and you may eventually view her as a steadfast nuisance more than the sweet girl you thought you found.
She's predictable and safe. If you don't like spontaneity, then this isn't a problem. However, because she will never waver from the tried and true habits and experiences, you might have a problem spicing up your relationship just when you feel it's most crucial to do so. Can you say vanilla sex ?
She might be playing you. The worst possible thing to discover is that this was all an act. She really is that wild child party girl who sucked you in with the "nice girl" facade, and all of a sudden, you're back playing the same relationship games that drove you to her in the first place.
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knock on her door
By now you surely know why you've been smitten with the girl-next-door type. It shouldn't be too hard to get out there and ask for a cup of sugar from that sweet thing who moved in across the hall or street. After all those women who messed with your heart before, it's now time to get some stable, honest, neighborly love.
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Well honestly speaking, I didn't finish reading the whole thing before posting this, I only copy paste. I've only read the definition part and I guess Girl Next Door is my type because of my honesty and naiveness. I get this feeling I'm not gonna be a great boyfriend who will bring much excitement to a relationship, but instead a great husband who is steady, loving and caring.
I know that I'm still young and not thinking about this stuff, but I guess is good to know myself better. Cheers!
I edited this post 15 minuted after I posted it, whatever comes out after this is the edited part. Strangely and funnily, I went to check out the meaning of Guy Next Door.
From Urban Dictionary.
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Basically the same sort of thing as a girl next door. He's sweet, charming, and quite cute, although he doesn't seem to know it.
Guys next door don't really dig the whole taking advantage of a girl thing, and although able to be one of the lads, they can be great mates with girls as well.
They dress casually, and although they don't try to stand out in the crowd or be the centre of attention, they still shine.
Guy's next door usually have one of those laughs or smiles that is able to make you feel instantly happier.
As part of a relationship, guys next door are typically the kind who seem quite casual about dating- they don't try it on fast. But, as with a girl next door, the guy isn't seen as being that involved in a relationship... but anyone who's been in one with a guy next door will know that they're dark horses, and alot more fun and passionate than you first thought.
So if you find a guy next door (and you happen to be a girl next door)... this one's a keeper.
Bring him home to the parents no problem!
Seth, from the O.C is a bit of a guy next door....although he's got a bit of a nerd thing going on
(despite that......mmmmmmmm!!!)
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A guy known for his kind, sensitive, caring personality rather than his good looks and charm. Usually a bit of a geek or nerd, the guy next door is the guy who is a really good friend to girls, but who never gets a romantic relationship with said "girl friends". Usually is very shy and reserved.
1. He's kind of the guy next door; he's a great friend, but I just can't picture something happening with us.
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Talk about knowing more about myself, I guess I'm a Guy Next Door. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. But anyways, cheers!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Life is Not a Fairy Tale
How I wish life was simple, where something like " and the live happily ever after " exist. Of course I'm not talking about love.
To be honest, I am a naive person. Unbelievable for someone like me. Another thing is, I am an honest fellow. Why do I feel like I am boasting about myself? So the thing is, I am an honest and naive person, I don't lie or trick or have bad intentions towards other people. Though I have to admit sometimes I still do, well that's because I'm human. What I really hope is people do the same to me, to be honest and have no bad intentions towards me. Wonder why am I saying this?
I admit that I am not the best or perfect son. I am 18 years old and am still a teenager. Rebellion will no doubt exist. But hey, it's just normal. I admit that I am not helping out much at home and I apologise, but sometimes I'm just really tired, please be understanding and not just scold me like I'm the most useless, most worthless son there is. Whatever that that you asked me to do now , the way you raised me, it's not because of respect, it's because of fear for your violence, that just shows how bad a parent you are. However, being a son that you never realise how good I am, I will do it because of obedience, no other excuses or inner debates.
Totally random stuff but totally genuine in my heart. Best wishes, take care.
To be honest, I am a naive person. Unbelievable for someone like me. Another thing is, I am an honest fellow. Why do I feel like I am boasting about myself? So the thing is, I am an honest and naive person, I don't lie or trick or have bad intentions towards other people. Though I have to admit sometimes I still do, well that's because I'm human. What I really hope is people do the same to me, to be honest and have no bad intentions towards me. Wonder why am I saying this?
I admit that I am not the best or perfect son. I am 18 years old and am still a teenager. Rebellion will no doubt exist. But hey, it's just normal. I admit that I am not helping out much at home and I apologise, but sometimes I'm just really tired, please be understanding and not just scold me like I'm the most useless, most worthless son there is. Whatever that that you asked me to do now , the way you raised me, it's not because of respect, it's because of fear for your violence, that just shows how bad a parent you are. However, being a son that you never realise how good I am, I will do it because of obedience, no other excuses or inner debates.
Totally random stuff but totally genuine in my heart. Best wishes, take care.
Friday, September 5, 2008
The Story of a Boy
Let me tell you a story of a boy, who is a Christian, taking his tertiary level studies. Well the story isn't complete or full because some details are missing and it's a long story, so please forgive me for the lackings.
So this boy was a teenager, a faithful Christian who is all positive about life.
The beginning
When he went to this university, he had some feelings for a girl and unfortunately for him, one of his newly-made friends have a similar feeling for her too. At first he was just admiring the girl, but slowly the admiration and adoration turned into a 'special' feeling.
This is where the problem is
Being a faithful Christian, a person who loves God a lot and value his ministry highly, plus the examples set by the leaders in church and church teachings, he is not allowed to date at this age or time. He struggled, hardly and deeply. He talked to some people, friends in real life and in online game, but not his church leaders. He was afraid, in his head he knew that it was not the time, that he may backslide as a Christian, but something is leading her closer and closer to the girl and there was nothing he could do to prevent or stop it. He did say that he would say aside and not go after the girl, that he determined that they would just be friends and he admiration would continue to be hidden. Time passed by and they chatted in msn and smsed. When they were not very familiar, they would sometimes meet in the cafeteria or some place in the university. Even when she is with a group of friends that they both knew (he wasn't close to them though), he would talk to them but his eyes and smile is locked onto the girl and she would do the same. He felt that they were attracting each other.
The heating up
So there was one night when in class, the girl asked him to sit next to her in class, everyone was there, even the boy himself couldn't believe it, this is one of the many reasons why he felt they were attracting each other. So that night, his friend, the one who liked the girl as well, was in a bad mood. He had already took the girl out on several occasions, with other friends going out with them, as a group. The boy didn't know how or what he should feel that night, he didn't know whether he should be happy (the girl asked him to sit next to her!) or sad (his friend was in a bad mood seeing the girl he liked asking a guy to sit next to her). But throughout the night, he was sad to see his friend in a bad mood. When he went home, he tried to 'settle' things via msn. His friend (either has no clue about anything or trying to be clueless) acted as if he doesn't know what happen (that the boy liked the girl and that he was in a bad mood in class that night). He told his friend not to be discouraged and continue to go after the girl. He made it clear that they were friends.
The revelation
The next day, in class, the girl smsed the boy regarding the fact that he encourage his friend to go after her. The boy never knew or expected that his friend would tell the girl what he said to him. So, naturally, he confessed that he was chasing the girl too, it was all so natural he had no control over it (he was not a lier and couldn't lie). Later that night, they chatted via msn, when there are many friends on too. The girl was being weird, a second she was sad about this, the next second she was sad about that. She was like a puzzle missing a piece, a mystery. The boy, seeing her sad, felt the pain too, though he couldn't understand exactly how she felt, he was sad too. It was a bother in his heart, something that he wants to fix but had no power or control over it because the girl doesn't want to open up. Her replies from sms were short and had no meaning at all, she wouldn't answer via msn and she wouldn't accept his call. So with a worried and messed up thought in his heart, he went to bed. The girl also said that she doesn't want to fall in love and she is now scared of him because of his indirect confession.
The breaking down
The next morning in class, though they did sit together in class and for breakfast, they didn't talk much. It was because the girl was still scared of the boy and the boy was not in the mood having gone to bed with a worried and messed up thought in his heart. Later that afternoon, they went to lunch with his friend and a few of their other friends. This is where it all made up clear to the boy. So his friend was sitting next to the girl and the boy was sitting opposite the friend, with other friends around. So they were close, she was happy, the friend is capable of cheering her up and making her laugh, the boy could feel that the friend cares for the girl, not just apparently. The boy felt that his friend would make a good boyfriend. The girl smiled a lot more and talked a lot more and would act a little pampered when with the friend compared to when she is with him, an awkward no-topic-just-eat-and-leave lunch. The act between his friend and the girl should have broken and shattered the boys heart, but strangely it didn't. In fact, he was happy. He was happy because the girl was happy, he was happy for her joy, her smile made him happy. The way his friend interacted with the girl, bringing her happiness and caring for her made him happy, because he was relieved someone would bring her joy, to care for her. He felt that he could let go. All he wanted was her to be happy, he didn't mind that he wasn't the guy to make the girl happy, but as long as she is happy, he will be happy. Sounds very noble, but it was all true.
The conclusion
Alls well that ends well, the boy does not need to backslide or give up on his ministry, the girl is happy, his friend is happy, he is happy. The boy even learned a lesson, the love and heart of God. God would love the world, His love, He wants the best for us, but yet........... All He wanted was for them to be happy, if they are happy, He will be happy. The other lesson he learned is that, everything is in God's plans and everything works for the better of him. No matter what he done or what he tried, no matter how bad the intentions, in the end everything still end up in His plans, how awesome is that. He truly understand the value of how God felt, His love for the people and all he need to do is trust in Him, no matter what happen, it is still in His plans, like Joseph's story.
The story continues
With the clarification of things, the boy once again set his sights on the goals he once set when he entered the university, this time more well-equipped and prepared than before, with his heart full of praise to the Lord.
A look at things spiritually
Before the week, the boy went to a Christian camp, he was prophesied that he has to choose between right and wrong, there is no half way and that bones will grow flesh and revive. At the right and wrong part, he instantly knew it was about his feelings for the girl, that he have to choose, but he cant just let go. After that camp, was when everything happened, it took 4 days to solve everything. God did a great job, almost awesome with perfect timing.
So this boy was a teenager, a faithful Christian who is all positive about life.
The beginning
When he went to this university, he had some feelings for a girl and unfortunately for him, one of his newly-made friends have a similar feeling for her too. At first he was just admiring the girl, but slowly the admiration and adoration turned into a 'special' feeling.
This is where the problem is
Being a faithful Christian, a person who loves God a lot and value his ministry highly, plus the examples set by the leaders in church and church teachings, he is not allowed to date at this age or time. He struggled, hardly and deeply. He talked to some people, friends in real life and in online game, but not his church leaders. He was afraid, in his head he knew that it was not the time, that he may backslide as a Christian, but something is leading her closer and closer to the girl and there was nothing he could do to prevent or stop it. He did say that he would say aside and not go after the girl, that he determined that they would just be friends and he admiration would continue to be hidden. Time passed by and they chatted in msn and smsed. When they were not very familiar, they would sometimes meet in the cafeteria or some place in the university. Even when she is with a group of friends that they both knew (he wasn't close to them though), he would talk to them but his eyes and smile is locked onto the girl and she would do the same. He felt that they were attracting each other.
The heating up
So there was one night when in class, the girl asked him to sit next to her in class, everyone was there, even the boy himself couldn't believe it, this is one of the many reasons why he felt they were attracting each other. So that night, his friend, the one who liked the girl as well, was in a bad mood. He had already took the girl out on several occasions, with other friends going out with them, as a group. The boy didn't know how or what he should feel that night, he didn't know whether he should be happy (the girl asked him to sit next to her!) or sad (his friend was in a bad mood seeing the girl he liked asking a guy to sit next to her). But throughout the night, he was sad to see his friend in a bad mood. When he went home, he tried to 'settle' things via msn. His friend (either has no clue about anything or trying to be clueless) acted as if he doesn't know what happen (that the boy liked the girl and that he was in a bad mood in class that night). He told his friend not to be discouraged and continue to go after the girl. He made it clear that they were friends.
The revelation
The next day, in class, the girl smsed the boy regarding the fact that he encourage his friend to go after her. The boy never knew or expected that his friend would tell the girl what he said to him. So, naturally, he confessed that he was chasing the girl too, it was all so natural he had no control over it (he was not a lier and couldn't lie). Later that night, they chatted via msn, when there are many friends on too. The girl was being weird, a second she was sad about this, the next second she was sad about that. She was like a puzzle missing a piece, a mystery. The boy, seeing her sad, felt the pain too, though he couldn't understand exactly how she felt, he was sad too. It was a bother in his heart, something that he wants to fix but had no power or control over it because the girl doesn't want to open up. Her replies from sms were short and had no meaning at all, she wouldn't answer via msn and she wouldn't accept his call. So with a worried and messed up thought in his heart, he went to bed. The girl also said that she doesn't want to fall in love and she is now scared of him because of his indirect confession.
The breaking down
The next morning in class, though they did sit together in class and for breakfast, they didn't talk much. It was because the girl was still scared of the boy and the boy was not in the mood having gone to bed with a worried and messed up thought in his heart. Later that afternoon, they went to lunch with his friend and a few of their other friends. This is where it all made up clear to the boy. So his friend was sitting next to the girl and the boy was sitting opposite the friend, with other friends around. So they were close, she was happy, the friend is capable of cheering her up and making her laugh, the boy could feel that the friend cares for the girl, not just apparently. The boy felt that his friend would make a good boyfriend. The girl smiled a lot more and talked a lot more and would act a little pampered when with the friend compared to when she is with him, an awkward no-topic-just-eat-and-leave lunch. The act between his friend and the girl should have broken and shattered the boys heart, but strangely it didn't. In fact, he was happy. He was happy because the girl was happy, he was happy for her joy, her smile made him happy. The way his friend interacted with the girl, bringing her happiness and caring for her made him happy, because he was relieved someone would bring her joy, to care for her. He felt that he could let go. All he wanted was her to be happy, he didn't mind that he wasn't the guy to make the girl happy, but as long as she is happy, he will be happy. Sounds very noble, but it was all true.
The conclusion
Alls well that ends well, the boy does not need to backslide or give up on his ministry, the girl is happy, his friend is happy, he is happy. The boy even learned a lesson, the love and heart of God. God would love the world, His love, He wants the best for us, but yet........... All He wanted was for them to be happy, if they are happy, He will be happy. The other lesson he learned is that, everything is in God's plans and everything works for the better of him. No matter what he done or what he tried, no matter how bad the intentions, in the end everything still end up in His plans, how awesome is that. He truly understand the value of how God felt, His love for the people and all he need to do is trust in Him, no matter what happen, it is still in His plans, like Joseph's story.
The story continues
With the clarification of things, the boy once again set his sights on the goals he once set when he entered the university, this time more well-equipped and prepared than before, with his heart full of praise to the Lord.
A look at things spiritually
Before the week, the boy went to a Christian camp, he was prophesied that he has to choose between right and wrong, there is no half way and that bones will grow flesh and revive. At the right and wrong part, he instantly knew it was about his feelings for the girl, that he have to choose, but he cant just let go. After that camp, was when everything happened, it took 4 days to solve everything. God did a great job, almost awesome with perfect timing.
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