Let me tell you a story of a boy, who is a Christian, taking his tertiary level studies. Well the story isn't complete or full because some details are missing and it's a long story, so please forgive me for the lackings.
So this boy was a teenager, a faithful Christian who is all positive about life.
The beginning
When he went to this university, he had some feelings for a girl and unfortunately for him, one of his newly-made friends have a similar feeling for her too. At first he was just admiring the girl, but slowly the admiration and adoration turned into a 'special' feeling.
This is where the problem is
Being a faithful Christian, a person who loves God a lot and value his ministry highly, plus the examples set by the leaders in church and church teachings, he is not allowed to date at this age or time. He struggled, hardly and deeply. He talked to some people, friends in real life and in online game, but not his church leaders. He was afraid, in his head he knew that it was not the time, that he may backslide as a Christian, but something is leading her closer and closer to the girl and there was nothing he could do to prevent or stop it. He did say that he would say aside and not go after the girl, that he determined that they would just be friends and he admiration would continue to be hidden. Time passed by and they chatted in msn and smsed. When they were not very familiar, they would sometimes meet in the cafeteria or some place in the university. Even when she is with a group of friends that they both knew (he wasn't close to them though), he would talk to them but his eyes and smile is locked onto the girl and she would do the same. He felt that they were attracting each other.
The heating up
So there was one night when in class, the girl asked him to sit next to her in class, everyone was there, even the boy himself couldn't believe it, this is one of the many reasons why he felt they were attracting each other. So that night, his friend, the one who liked the girl as well, was in a bad mood. He had already took the girl out on several occasions, with other friends going out with them, as a group. The boy didn't know how or what he should feel that night, he didn't know whether he should be happy (the girl asked him to sit next to her!) or sad (his friend was in a bad mood seeing the girl he liked asking a guy to sit next to her). But throughout the night, he was sad to see his friend in a bad mood. When he went home, he tried to 'settle' things via msn. His friend (either has no clue about anything or trying to be clueless) acted as if he doesn't know what happen (that the boy liked the girl and that he was in a bad mood in class that night). He told his friend not to be discouraged and continue to go after the girl. He made it clear that they were friends.
The revelation
The next day, in class, the girl smsed the boy regarding the fact that he encourage his friend to go after her. The boy never knew or expected that his friend would tell the girl what he said to him. So, naturally, he confessed that he was chasing the girl too, it was all so natural he had no control over it (he was not a lier and couldn't lie). Later that night, they chatted via msn, when there are many friends on too. The girl was being weird, a second she was sad about this, the next second she was sad about that. She was like a puzzle missing a piece, a mystery. The boy, seeing her sad, felt the pain too, though he couldn't understand exactly how she felt, he was sad too. It was a bother in his heart, something that he wants to fix but had no power or control over it because the girl doesn't want to open up. Her replies from sms were short and had no meaning at all, she wouldn't answer via msn and she wouldn't accept his call. So with a worried and messed up thought in his heart, he went to bed. The girl also said that she doesn't want to fall in love and she is now scared of him because of his indirect confession.
The breaking down
The next morning in class, though they did sit together in class and for breakfast, they didn't talk much. It was because the girl was still scared of the boy and the boy was not in the mood having gone to bed with a worried and messed up thought in his heart. Later that afternoon, they went to lunch with his friend and a few of their other friends. This is where it all made up clear to the boy. So his friend was sitting next to the girl and the boy was sitting opposite the friend, with other friends around. So they were close, she was happy, the friend is capable of cheering her up and making her laugh, the boy could feel that the friend cares for the girl, not just apparently. The boy felt that his friend would make a good boyfriend. The girl smiled a lot more and talked a lot more and would act a little pampered when with the friend compared to when she is with him, an awkward no-topic-just-eat-and-leave lunch. The act between his friend and the girl should have broken and shattered the boys heart, but strangely it didn't. In fact, he was happy. He was happy because the girl was happy, he was happy for her joy, her smile made him happy. The way his friend interacted with the girl, bringing her happiness and caring for her made him happy, because he was relieved someone would bring her joy, to care for her. He felt that he could let go. All he wanted was her to be happy, he didn't mind that he wasn't the guy to make the girl happy, but as long as she is happy, he will be happy. Sounds very noble, but it was all true.
The conclusion
Alls well that ends well, the boy does not need to backslide or give up on his ministry, the girl is happy, his friend is happy, he is happy. The boy even learned a lesson, the love and heart of God. God would love the world, His love, He wants the best for us, but yet........... All He wanted was for them to be happy, if they are happy, He will be happy. The other lesson he learned is that, everything is in God's plans and everything works for the better of him. No matter what he done or what he tried, no matter how bad the intentions, in the end everything still end up in His plans, how awesome is that. He truly understand the value of how God felt, His love for the people and all he need to do is trust in Him, no matter what happen, it is still in His plans, like Joseph's story.
The story continues
With the clarification of things, the boy once again set his sights on the goals he once set when he entered the university, this time more well-equipped and prepared than before, with his heart full of praise to the Lord.
A look at things spiritually
Before the week, the boy went to a Christian camp, he was prophesied that he has to choose between right and wrong, there is no half way and that bones will grow flesh and revive. At the right and wrong part, he instantly knew it was about his feelings for the girl, that he have to choose, but he cant just let go. After that camp, was when everything happened, it took 4 days to solve everything. God did a great job, almost awesome with perfect timing.
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