The Day Before My Birthday

So I'm sitting here, preparing my work stuff. My sister lying on her bed, both of us sick, but her's even worse. Feel sorry for her, because I infected her and she has to do a 4 sector this evening. I really hope she recovers, take care mei!

Lot's of stuff and emotions running through me. Though I really appreciate what all my friends and family had done for my birthday, I feel really sad and lonely because my birthday is coming, tomorrow, and I'm all alone. I have no friends, no family, my sis will be flying, I will be sitting here again, right in front of my laptop, just spending or should I rather say wasting my time until the day I can really be free and happy from all this.

Normally I don't really care about birthdays, or celebrations or gifts. Just a simple happy birthday wish is good enough for me because it shows people still care and remember. But what's most important to me is just to be around the people who I care and care about me, friends and family, especially during birthdays and public holidays.

I do realise it's good and easy money, and I have no problem wasting my time away because I am the lazies person around. But it's times like this again and again that makes me wonder, why? Is it so hard to ask just to be around friends, family, and loved ones during special occasions? Is it that hard?

I don't know. But what I do know is, if I can fight through this, these emotions and thoughts this time, I will be a lot stronger.

By the way, thank you guys for all the gifts and the time spent to celebrate-in-advance my birthday. I really appreciate it.