Glasses

Where do I start and where do I go? We'll see, well lets go with dates and people and stuff.

So that day was the 19th of December, I went to Plaza Merdeka for the first time, accompanied by my two buddies, Poh Chun and Ching Hui. So we were just walking around, looking at shops and people and stuff. Of course, boys being boys, we would keep our eyes peeled for pretty girls, we are all single too by the way. So we get up an escalator to the third floor, and right there is a shop called DongDaeMun. There I saw her, glasses, huge nerdy glasses on that cute face. My buddies spotted her too and we agreed that she does look cute.

Then I started running my mouth talking shit that I do not have the courage to do. My friends, of course, took my words for real and challenge me to do it. And then I realise where my big mouth has gotten me to. I seriously have no idea what I am doing or what to do with girls. I was so lost, plus I didn't dare to do stuff like this. I was always kinda reserved. So that day I went home being labelled "fail" by Poh Chun.

So the next day, 20th of December, Chun and I were waiting for Cal to be free so he could come out with us to Boulevard, because I had a few computer related stuff that I want to buy and settle. Those would include fixing my hdd that can be safely removed but doesn't show in my computer for me to open it, AAA batteries and a charger for my Razer Chimaera 5.1 headset, a horizontal 17' inch laptop bag, usb 3.0 64/32gb pendrive, headphone port splitter and PS/2 controller to usb. I waited for Cal until it was kinda late so I went out with Chun first with his camera. So he first mentioned about Riverside and we really didn't had a clear destination. We ended up parking at Plaza Merdeka.

This time however, I really want to do it. To go in there and grab her Facebook so we can keep contact since it doesn't make sense for me to get her number because I won't be in Malaysia often.  Before this I had posted in a group asking for advice regarding my situation and how would I approach a girl like that. I didn't find it that helpful. As we walked past the store, this time I stopped at the railing and Chun asked me what's up. I told him, I'm gonna do it. I was bracing myself, mustering what little courage I have, this has gotta be the first time I try to get a total strangers contact out of the blue. However I still have no idea how to do it, how to start, what to say. So I called my pro friend Cal and he gave me some really good advice. "I'm going in", I told Chun.

So I stepped in and started pretending to browse stuff. The whole store only has woman shoes and handbags. I am so screwed, there's nothing relevant to me at all. Then I walked up to her, instead of all the other salesgirls around who are nearer to me, she was standing near counter by the way. So I walked up to her and asked for her help. I told her that I was totally lost with girls' stuff. So I started digging my socially awkward brain for topics that does not make things too awkward by switching back to "trying to buy something". I managed to ask her age, her school, was she satisfied with her PMR result and which stream she is going to and if she is satisfied with it. One of the "oh shit" moments for me was, when she asked who am I buying the stuff for, I replied someone around our age.

Her age was 15... Yeah, 15, 7 years younger than I am. When I heard that, I had totally lost my will. I was like, how could she be 15, what's wrong with my eyes. Because before this I had asked Chun and Hui how old they think she is. We all kinda agreed that she is around 17 or so. Yes, 17 is young, but just gotta go ahead and ask just to give it a shot. But 15, now that is huge. So I gave up the idea of asking for her Facebook and left the place after thanking her and telling her I might go back again.

I am typing this at 4am in the morning at the 22nd of December. I went with screw it, I will just add her on Facebook and see how things go(Yes, I manage to find her on Facebook, don't ask how. No, I am not hoping for anything, kinda). Waiting for her approval.

Another (sweet) Dream about Dream Girl

It's been ages since I last posted, or had a sweet dream, or dreamed about my dream girl. Too long, didn't even know she was still in my mind, don't think it means anything though, but still it's pretty cool.

So the dream was in a hall or a restaurant or something, we were eating around a table. Dream girl, her sis, me and a couple of people whom I don't remember were there. Dream girl was sitting next to me, and her sis opposite me. We were eating, having dinner or something. Dream girl got closer and closer to me and leaning towards me, I gave in and lean on her too. All this time while her sis was sitting opposite of me and smiling at me (the dream was made that both sisters have feelings for me). When I finally gave in, on the other table just opposite me, were my secondary school friends, I remember clearly seeing Ah Bui's face and he was waving and smiling at me with the smile saying "oh, so that's what you're up to, congratulations!" And my response was me doing the sign language version of "shhhhh" which is putting one finger on my lips, asking them not to make a commotion out of it.

Yeah, that's basically what the dream was like. A little short, but it was really sweet, and the cool part is I actually remembered it after I woke up. Like I said before, I haven't had a sweet dream in a long time and didn't even think about my dream girl for a long time because she was in the past, though we never really shared a past together.

R.I.P. Junior 2006-22/6/2012

My good Junior, being with us since she was born, a little kitten until the faithful day she died. I was glad she died with us and not alone out there. I was glad I get to know the truth, instead of her wandering outside and die without us knowing when did it happen.

12/6/2012 was the last day I would be able to pet her. Even though I was back for a good stretch of 5 days, she was only home one day. If I knew that was the last time, I would have definitely spent more time with her, hold her harder.

She brought our family a lot of love and happiness, especially to me. Through lots of tough and difficult times, she was always there. During SPM, when I was in Swinburne, when my parents were really harsh on me, she was always there, on her seat, faithfully accompanying me.

Junior on her seat, sleeping soundly on 9/6/2009

Junior wanting to jump onto my lap on 3/4/2010

 Look at her sleeping so cutely on her seat on 15/5/2010

 She looking at me take her pic when she is lying on her seat on 20/9/2010

 

 On 3/1/2012, she asking permission to sleep on my lap and also jumping down from her chair.

 

 

 

Her last pictures taken by my dad, she seemed to die in peace. This is the day my dad picked her body up from the vet, 23/6/2012. M dad buried her at the end of the jungle opposite our house on 24/6/2012.

Once again, thank you Junior for all the joy and love you bring to this house. You will be missed. R.I.P.Junior, my good girl.

14-16 Surprise Kuching Trip

Even though 13th was Mother's Day, I was working that day, could only go back on the 14th. I actually only bought the air ticket and planned to give my mum the surprise just days before, I think it was on the 10th.

I wanted to do this for my mum, as a son should. I tried to ask my sis to go back with me for the surprise mother's day, but unfortunately she couldn't make it happen.

I got my good friend Cal to thank for helping me. Easily finding time to pick me up, accompanying me to The Spring to buy flowers, look at movie show times and also looking and buying some things. Also I got to know the price of the amazing watch that my friends bought for me as a birthday gift, I was really impressed.

Before going back, that very morning I called my mum just to check if she was free that night so I can execute my plan. I said Happy Mother's Day to her, and she actually cried.

So fast forward to "the moment". I gave my mum the flowers, hugged her and said Happy Mother's Day. It was really touching, she cried and I almost cried, didn't, but almost, it was pretty chessy, but I was proud of it. You know, back when I was a teenager I used to think it was really lame that I always go out with my parents while people my age are always hanging out with their friends, but now, I'm proud to do it because it shows how good a son I am.

Also this time, I manage to get to Swinburne a couple of times. Met a few friends such as Kok Yuen, Hee Kui, Lester and Kang Hong. The different smells of Swinburne, refreshed my memory, reminded me of so many things, I needed that. Seeing all those busy people studying and doing revision, reminded me again that its not all fun and games in Uni, I have to give 100% of my focus and attention. I get reminded of all the hard work, the studying, the assignments, etc. I really needed that. So I can push myself to focus and do my work now.

I guess that's it for me, was a great trip for me. Even though it was only a 48 hour trip, it meant a lot to me and I feel satisfied coming back to Singapore as I felt I have achieved something.

Belated Valentines Post

I think that every year, during Valentines Day, I will usually do a blog post. Well this year came a bit late, I wanted to post, but then I just couldn't be bothered, yet.

So what did I do during this years Valentines? If I was still in Kuching, I'd probably let my parents go out on a date while I stay at home. So not much difference than when I am in Singapore. I just sit around alone in front of my laptop. Hey com'on, its not that sad.

I texted my two cute cousins, which are nice girls and I was pretty surprised that they both didn't receive anything for Valentines Day. Lol if I was a guy in their school or living near them, I would definitely send them gifts. I even said to one of them that the guys in their school must be blind or something is wrong with them because they are so awesome and no one sent them any gifts.

Anyways, I salute all those that live through that day alone, I know it wasn't easy for me and also a good luck to all my bros fighting the valentines war.

The Day Before My Birthday

So I'm sitting here, preparing my work stuff. My sister lying on her bed, both of us sick, but her's even worse. Feel sorry for her, because I infected her and she has to do a 4 sector this evening. I really hope she recovers, take care mei!

Lot's of stuff and emotions running through me. Though I really appreciate what all my friends and family had done for my birthday, I feel really sad and lonely because my birthday is coming, tomorrow, and I'm all alone. I have no friends, no family, my sis will be flying, I will be sitting here again, right in front of my laptop, just spending or should I rather say wasting my time until the day I can really be free and happy from all this.

Normally I don't really care about birthdays, or celebrations or gifts. Just a simple happy birthday wish is good enough for me because it shows people still care and remember. But what's most important to me is just to be around the people who I care and care about me, friends and family, especially during birthdays and public holidays.

I do realise it's good and easy money, and I have no problem wasting my time away because I am the lazies person around. But it's times like this again and again that makes me wonder, why? Is it so hard to ask just to be around friends, family, and loved ones during special occasions? Is it that hard?

I don't know. But what I do know is, if I can fight through this, these emotions and thoughts this time, I will be a lot stronger.

By the way, thank you guys for all the gifts and the time spent to celebrate-in-advance my birthday. I really appreciate it.

No Updates

Don't know why, but lately, I have no feeling at all about updating my blog. It's not that I have nothing going on in my life, just I guess, not worth blogging? I don't really know.

Well, thats all. Peace out!