Saturday, March 26, 2011

Its Kind of a Funny Story


Its kind of a funny story that Its Kind of a Funny Story is kind of like my story. So the whole story about a teenage kid who wanted to kill himself because of stress and depression but got himself admitted into a psychiatric ward. Thats where he met some people, and also the purpose to live again. Depression, stress, emotional, down, negative...

There were a few quotes in the movie that I really liked. However, my favorite would be : "I... This is the part I don't get Craig, I mean... You're cool, you're smart, you're talented... You have a family that loves you. You know, what I would do to just be you for just a day. I would... I would do so much. I would... I don't know, I'd just... I'd just live." Then there's another one: "Okay, I know you're thinking, what is this? Kid spends a few days in the hospital and all those problems are cured? But I'm not. I know em. I can tell this is just the beginning. I still need to face my homework, my school, my friends, my dad... But the difference between today and last Saturday, is in the first time for a while, I can look forward to things I want to do in my life. Bike, eat, drink, talk, ride the subway, read, read maps, make maps, make art, finish the Gates application, tell my dad not to stress about it, hug my mum, kiss my little sister, kiss my dad, make out with Noelle, make out with her more, take her on a picnic, see a movie with her, see a movie with Aaron, heck see a movie with Nia, have a party, tell people my story, volunteer at Three North, help people like Bobby, like Muqtada, like me, draw more, draw a person, draw a naked person, draw Noelle naked, run, travel, swim, skip, yeah I know its lame, but whatever, skip anyway. Breathe... ... ... Live. " Also there's this one thats really the case : "Like, I'm on the verge of just blowing up. You know, all the stress and pressure and anxiety, just bubbling up. But I'm never be able to let it out like that. You know, I just keep it inside."

Then there was Emma Roberts! Gosh she is so pretty. The only bad thing was, she had kiss scenes, 4 of them! Well okay, there was only 2, and 2 were just pictures. But still, kind of piss me off. Hahaha, but whatever, its just stupid. Also, she is way prettier than Nia!


I think this movie really did help me a little, its good, its what I like.

3rd Fort Sunk by KSer aka me

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Thursday, March 17, 2011

In Ya' Face!


In your face kill stealers always gunning for last hit!

Michael Bublé - Home


Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Seriously Homesick

I hate to admit it, but ever since coming back from home, I am not feeling very good inside. I have this feeling in my gut, which I really dislike. I think my sister is probably the only thing that is making me feel better in Singapore. I don't like this job, which makes my life in Singapore really bad. I don't enjoy the job, people always say, its very nice that you can travel all around the world or wow you're working with SIA or thats a lot of money for your age and qualifications, but I guess they really don't know unless they are there or I am just too weak. I hate the bond, which is 13,800 Singapore Dollars, and is close to RM30k. I don't know how long I can take it, and Herman's situation is really encouraging me. I am not trying to demotivate myself here, but I am just saying out my feelings. How is ah mei gonna feel once I am gone? How is mummy and daddy gonna think about me for being such a quitter? But somehow I really cannot take this, it feels bad.

I really do feel like calling my mum and begging her to let me go home, I am feeling very down.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Home

It felt great being home, from 22/2-27/2. My schedule was packed, since day 1 until the last day, from morning until night.

On day 1, I reached Kuching around 4pm, on the plane with me was my sis, Calvyn and his father, and also my sis' batch boy. Once we reached there, mummy hasn't even came. When we called her, she told us she was washing the car. OMG, can you believe it? Both her children has come back from a foreign country after months, and she is washing the car! Well doesn't matter. At night, I had dinner with GIFC. Anderson came to fetch me, yep you saw right, ANDERSON CAME TO FETCH ME, ANDERSON DRIVING HIS CAR! So we had the gathering at the Lok Lok place behind Kuching High. I ate like RM26 and I wasn't even full, so expensive and bohua! And I owe Kok Yuen the money, because I was loaded with Singapore Dollars and zero on Ringgit. Must remember to pay him back. After that, the 3 Musketeers + 1 went to Gizmo to play L4D2. Since I never played the new maps, The Sacrifice and The Passing. The unfortunate thing was, they keep on chiong, so I didn't really had much fun, but at least I can't say that I never played the map before.


On day 2, which was a Wednesday, I watched The Mechanic with the 3 Musketeers again. Jason Statham, one would expect something more of him, but it wasn't that bad a movie either. There's the gay part where they were gonna "fix" another mechanic, that really got us going "Eeeee~". Then at night, had dinner with my family and then we went to visit my grandma at Normah. She's been there since before CNY. I didn't knew what to think or how to feel at the moment of the time, either that everything is normal because she is old or to feel very worried because it's been quite a many times she's been in the hospital.


On the 3rd day, I had the privilege to have Calvyn bringing and accompanying me shopping and having my haircut. Went around Sarawak Plaza, Tun Jugah and Parkson with shoes as my priority, but couldn't even get 1. In the end, got myself 2 t-shirts and some shoe polisher. Also, Tun Jugah is 60% empty on the 2nd floor and only Popular left on the 3rd floor, poor Tun Jugah.
At night, brought my parents to watch I Love Hong Kong 2011. It was very very funny, my favorite part would be the front part where they all pretended to be ghost, amazing hahahaha. When we were leaving the cinema, we met ah mei the betrayer with her friends, she hadn't answer any of our calls all day long and said she didn't bring her phone with her. After the movie with my parents, I went to Isabella with part of GIFC. We played cards and chatted, and I treated everyone for the night. Also I spent the night at Calvyn's place.


On Friday, went with Calvyn to Saberkas in search of some pc stuff, Ngage and shoes. I bought a pair of speakers and 3 pairs of shoes. After that, I went to Charles' home and we went to H&L to shop for our steamboat's ingredients. Then we went prayer meeting. I'm glad that I am still able to worship God freely, to be able to speak in tongue. At a point, my tears even came out. This is indeed home, this is indeed my church. After PM, was the steamboat and bbq. It was awesome, except that, I felt, there wasn't enough food, I kept on saying "should have bought more food". Funny thing was, we were using charcoal from the last time that we bbq, which was 4 months ago, left behind in the barrel and we still manage to cook the chicken wings to perfection, praise God for that. That night we slept at 3am.

In the morning, we went to have breakfast at Starbucks and I actually had a 20% discount using my Swinburne student ID, lucky I didn't return it. Then we went to One Jaya since I never been into the building since it's opening. Nothing special, didn't even manage to go to the top floor. Afternoon went to LG, it felt that there was less people. The theme was "Compromise". It was a great theme, a great reminder for me, since coming to Singapore, I had indeed compromise many things and it's time I take them back. At night, had dinner with my parents at San Francisco Grill, which is just next to the Lok Lok place. My dad said he used to bring my mum here every year during her birthday, because of the atmosphere. After dinner, went out with my secondary school gang to Isabella, but the place was full, so we went to Day Dream instead, which was just next door. We played pool and my skills really suck, haven't played in a long time. We were one of the last to leave the place. Kiong still owe me money hahahaha.

The next day was also the last day, Sunday. It was raining, ever since last night, the feeling on the bed was incredible, so comfortable, so familiar. I was too tired, so I missed WFL and also went to SS late. When I was there, it was already the Holy Communion, it meant a lot to me to be able to partake the bread and wine. After shepherding, went home to take lunch because mummy insisted to cook for me, to let me have a home cook meal. I ate for more than an hour trying to finish everything and trust me it was a huge portion with 5 dishes, red wine chicken, ginger beef, fried fish egg, oyster sauce vege and soup. Then I went to pack and be ready to return to Singapore.

I didn't want anyone to send me off, because it would be very hard for me. I was never good with goodbyes. I was very reluctant to leave, because of the love and welcome I received. But then I remembered how I left in the first place. And also, that coming back was suppose to motivate me, to push me on so I can continue my work in Singapore. It's not that bad, in fact, if I look at it this way, I can go back every month if I wanted to. I want to leave as if I never left the place, so no goodbyes, because I'll be BACK!