Fatherly Advice

It's been quite some time now that I wanted to ask my dad a question: "Why did he chose my mum?"

To be honest, my dad and mum aren't the most compatible couple on Earth. In fact, they are way too different, so many things that they disagree. Though they seldom fight about it, I can tell. That really makes me wonder, why did they chose each other and how did they make it past all these years?

So why am I asking? Reason being, I'm kind of in a situation myself. So I meet this girl that I really like, but there are so many things that I would disagree with her, so many of her qualities, characteristics, views, values, thoughts, opinions and thinking. I've been giving myself so many reasons to not like this girl, but in the end, only 1 reason is needed for me to like her.

I've been thinking a lot, I've always believe that there's a perfect girl for me, tailor-made by God just to suit me. We're 100% compatible, that everything I do or she does, just perfectly suits each other and we're able to help and support each other to go further. And this girl, just doesn't fit that description.

She calls me "old-minded" while saying that she is "open-minded". I want a wife thats one and only, who is 100% committed to me and me to her, she on the other hand doesn't mind her husband goofing off outside while she does the same but by the end of the day, they would return to each other. I hold strong values in God, while she's neither here nor there, though she did went to church since young, she also has the traditional Chinese believes. I believe that a couple should work together to build a family, but she doesn't want to work, wants a maid at home and her husband must give her half of his pay, and it isn't to manage the family's finance but only for her own "insurance".

Those are only a few instances, there are many others, but it would be rude for me to post it out. That's why I've been thinking a lot and I'd really like to hear what my dad has to say because I can see the similarity. Of course the right choice would be to say "screw all this, there's definitely one person out there waiting for me, and its the right person", but its just not that easy, when emotions are involved, logic just gets blurred.

She. Her. The Girl

I'm glad that I'm so free now that I can have girl problems.

So this girl was my first love, I fell for her the first time I saw her, you can call it love at first sight. It was during secondary school, form 2. I still remember the classroom, where her classroom was, the corridors, the stairs, the love letters, the gift I gave her, the gift she gave me which I still have in my room.

Of course we never started, only friends, which was a blessing in disguise. We were close, but now I know, she was good with everyone, especially guys. Anyways, my fondest memories were taekwondo at Kenyalang. I would walk there in the morning to play badminton with her, then taekwondo, then walk home, and sometimes her mum would give me a lift home. I remember the strawberry milk tea she bought me. I remember seeing her showing her friend some taekwondo pattern during her PJ class while I was playing basketball with my friends before taekwondo club. Too many things that I remember, back then I was naive, even now so.

Today, my heart was really challenged, it was broken. I have given myself so many excuses to not like this girl, so many reasons, so many... but still, I enjoy every moment I spend with her and wants to spend more. I wish I could post it here, but I can't, it's confidential and also respect to her. I really feel like screaming. I keep on thinking of it, but I just cant imagine it. This is driving me crazy, why must I like a girl like this? I deserve better, I deserve someone as good as I am. Totally different views, call me old minded, whatever, thats the purity in me, that is sacred and holy to me, but I don't know how you view it.

Anyways, I think this was the last straw, the final nail to the coffin. Don't blame me if I change... but I don't know if I can do it... I hope I can, I wish I can...

Pray for Parents

Dear Lord,

I thank You for my dear parents. All this while I had failed to see their love for me, failing to appreciate what I already have, falling into the traps and lies from the devil. But today I know, today I see, and I am grateful and thankful for them. I pray that Lord You bless them, take good care of them. Because I really hold them dear in my heart and I wish that our relationship improve even better. I am lucky to have them as my parents and I shall appreciate them even more. I just want to pray for them O'Lord, that you take good care of them, and also my little sis. Let Your blessings pour onto them. Thank you Lord. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

4th Fort Sink

Thank You Edge

Yes, I am a wrestling fan and this post is dedicated to Adam Copeland aka Edge, the rated r superstar, the master manipulator, the ultimate opportunist.

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Its Kind of a Funny Story

Its kind of a funny story that Its Kind of a Funny Story is kind of like my story. So the whole story about a teenage kid who wanted to kill himself because of stress and depression but got himself admitted into a psychiatric ward. Thats where he met some people, and also the purpose to live again. Depression, stress, emotional, down, negative...

There were a few quotes in the movie that I really liked. However, my favorite would be : "I... This is the part I don't get Craig, I mean... You're cool, you're smart, you're talented... You have a family that loves you. You know, what I would do to just be you for just a day. I would... I would do so much. I would... I don't know, I'd just... I'd just live." Then there's another one: "Okay, I know you're thinking, what is this? Kid spends a few days in the hospital and all those problems are cured? But I'm not. I know em. I can tell this is just the beginning. I still need to face my homework, my school, my friends, my dad... But the difference between today and last Saturday, is in the first time for a while, I can look forward to things I want to do in my life. Bike, eat, drink, talk, ride the subway, read, read maps, make maps, make art, finish the Gates application, tell my dad not to stress about it, hug my mum, kiss my little sister, kiss my dad, make out with Noelle, make out with her more, take her on a picnic, see a movie with her, see a movie with Aaron, heck see a movie with Nia, have a party, tell people my story, volunteer at Three North, help people like Bobby, like Muqtada, like me, draw more, draw a person, draw a naked person, draw Noelle naked, run, travel, swim, skip, yeah I know its lame, but whatever, skip anyway. Breathe... ... ... Live. " Also there's this one thats really the case : "Like, I'm on the verge of just blowing up. You know, all the stress and pressure and anxiety, just bubbling up. But I'm never be able to let it out like that. You know, I just keep it inside."

Then there was Emma Roberts! Gosh she is so pretty. The only bad thing was, she had kiss scenes, 4 of them! Well okay, there was only 2, and 2 were just pictures. But still, kind of piss me off. Hahaha, but whatever, its just stupid. Also, she is way prettier than Nia!

I think this movie really did help me a little, its good, its what I like.

3rd Fort Sunk by KSer aka me

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