Another (sweet) Dream about Dream Girl

It's been ages since I last posted, or had a sweet dream, or dreamed about my dream girl. Too long, didn't even know she was still in my mind, don't think it means anything though, but still it's pretty cool.

So the dream was in a hall or a restaurant or something, we were eating around a table. Dream girl, her sis, me and a couple of people whom I don't remember were there. Dream girl was sitting next to me, and her sis opposite me. We were eating, having dinner or something. Dream girl got closer and closer to me and leaning towards me, I gave in and lean on her too. All this time while her sis was sitting opposite of me and smiling at me (the dream was made that both sisters have feelings for me). When I finally gave in, on the other table just opposite me, were my secondary school friends, I remember clearly seeing Ah Bui's face and he was waving and smiling at me with the smile saying "oh, so that's what you're up to, congratulations!" And my response was me doing the sign language version of "shhhhh" which is putting one finger on my lips, asking them not to make a commotion out of it.

Yeah, that's basically what the dream was like. A little short, but it was really sweet, and the cool part is I actually remembered it after I woke up. Like I said before, I haven't had a sweet dream in a long time and didn't even think about my dream girl for a long time because she was in the past, though we never really shared a past together.

R.I.P. Junior 2006-22/6/2012

My good Junior, being with us since she was born, a little kitten until the faithful day she died. I was glad she died with us and not alone out there. I was glad I get to know the truth, instead of her wandering outside and die without us knowing when did it happen.

12/6/2012 was the last day I would be able to pet her. Even though I was back for a good stretch of 5 days, she was only home one day. If I knew that was the last time, I would have definitely spent more time with her, hold her harder.

She brought our family a lot of love and happiness, especially to me. Through lots of tough and difficult times, she was always there. During SPM, when I was in Swinburne, when my parents were really harsh on me, she was always there, on her seat, faithfully accompanying me.

Junior on her seat, sleeping soundly on 9/6/2009

Junior wanting to jump onto my lap on 3/4/2010

 Look at her sleeping so cutely on her seat on 15/5/2010

 She looking at me take her pic when she is lying on her seat on 20/9/2010

 

 On 3/1/2012, she asking permission to sleep on my lap and also jumping down from her chair.

 

 

 

Her last pictures taken by my dad, she seemed to die in peace. This is the day my dad picked her body up from the vet, 23/6/2012. M dad buried her at the end of the jungle opposite our house on 24/6/2012.

Once again, thank you Junior for all the joy and love you bring to this house. You will be missed. R.I.P.Junior, my good girl.

14-16 Surprise Kuching Trip

Even though 13th was Mother's Day, I was working that day, could only go back on the 14th. I actually only bought the air ticket and planned to give my mum the surprise just days before, I think it was on the 10th.

I wanted to do this for my mum, as a son should. I tried to ask my sis to go back with me for the surprise mother's day, but unfortunately she couldn't make it happen.

I got my good friend Cal to thank for helping me. Easily finding time to pick me up, accompanying me to The Spring to buy flowers, look at movie show times and also looking and buying some things. Also I got to know the price of the amazing watch that my friends bought for me as a birthday gift, I was really impressed.

Before going back, that very morning I called my mum just to check if she was free that night so I can execute my plan. I said Happy Mother's Day to her, and she actually cried.

So fast forward to "the moment". I gave my mum the flowers, hugged her and said Happy Mother's Day. It was really touching, she cried and I almost cried, didn't, but almost, it was pretty chessy, but I was proud of it. You know, back when I was a teenager I used to think it was really lame that I always go out with my parents while people my age are always hanging out with their friends, but now, I'm proud to do it because it shows how good a son I am.

Also this time, I manage to get to Swinburne a couple of times. Met a few friends such as Kok Yuen, Hee Kui, Lester and Kang Hong. The different smells of Swinburne, refreshed my memory, reminded me of so many things, I needed that. Seeing all those busy people studying and doing revision, reminded me again that its not all fun and games in Uni, I have to give 100% of my focus and attention. I get reminded of all the hard work, the studying, the assignments, etc. I really needed that. So I can push myself to focus and do my work now.

I guess that's it for me, was a great trip for me. Even though it was only a 48 hour trip, it meant a lot to me and I feel satisfied coming back to Singapore as I felt I have achieved something.

Belated Valentines Post

I think that every year, during Valentines Day, I will usually do a blog post. Well this year came a bit late, I wanted to post, but then I just couldn't be bothered, yet.

So what did I do during this years Valentines? If I was still in Kuching, I'd probably let my parents go out on a date while I stay at home. So not much difference than when I am in Singapore. I just sit around alone in front of my laptop. Hey com'on, its not that sad.

I texted my two cute cousins, which are nice girls and I was pretty surprised that they both didn't receive anything for Valentines Day. Lol if I was a guy in their school or living near them, I would definitely send them gifts. I even said to one of them that the guys in their school must be blind or something is wrong with them because they are so awesome and no one sent them any gifts.

Anyways, I salute all those that live through that day alone, I know it wasn't easy for me and also a good luck to all my bros fighting the valentines war.

The Day Before My Birthday

So I'm sitting here, preparing my work stuff. My sister lying on her bed, both of us sick, but her's even worse. Feel sorry for her, because I infected her and she has to do a 4 sector this evening. I really hope she recovers, take care mei!

Lot's of stuff and emotions running through me. Though I really appreciate what all my friends and family had done for my birthday, I feel really sad and lonely because my birthday is coming, tomorrow, and I'm all alone. I have no friends, no family, my sis will be flying, I will be sitting here again, right in front of my laptop, just spending or should I rather say wasting my time until the day I can really be free and happy from all this.

Normally I don't really care about birthdays, or celebrations or gifts. Just a simple happy birthday wish is good enough for me because it shows people still care and remember. But what's most important to me is just to be around the people who I care and care about me, friends and family, especially during birthdays and public holidays.

I do realise it's good and easy money, and I have no problem wasting my time away because I am the lazies person around. But it's times like this again and again that makes me wonder, why? Is it so hard to ask just to be around friends, family, and loved ones during special occasions? Is it that hard?

I don't know. But what I do know is, if I can fight through this, these emotions and thoughts this time, I will be a lot stronger.

By the way, thank you guys for all the gifts and the time spent to celebrate-in-advance my birthday. I really appreciate it.

No Updates

Don't know why, but lately, I have no feeling at all about updating my blog. It's not that I have nothing going on in my life, just I guess, not worth blogging? I don't really know.

Well, thats all. Peace out!

End of the Year Post

It's been a long time since I blogged. Well if you read the last post before this one, you'd understand why. I've been down for quite some time, after she devastated me. I didn't realise that I really was so serious about it. Time to move on, but I haven't recovered yet. Oh well, I'll just take my time.

So lets think back, for the past year, what had happened, lets recap and then look forward to next year 2012.

I wouldn't do a timeline thingy though, because all I had to do is just read back my old blog posts. So here we go.

My first full year away from home, out in a foreign country. It's not so different actually, Singapore. I've been to many places, done many things, possibly I wouldn't do in my entire life if I had stayed back. Actually, things weren't so bad.

Work related. I've been to China, Japan (used to be my dream destination, but actually it sucks), Indonesia, Australia, U.A.E (40'C++), Korea, America, Italy, England, New Zealand, Manila, India, Russia, Turkey and don't know if I missed out others. Done different things such as went to Ferrari World in Abu Dhabi, Six Flags Magic Mountain in Los Angeles (immune to roller coaster rides), Desert Tour in Dubai, Opera House in Sydney, Venice and Roman Colosseum, Blue Mosque in Turkey and again some more that I might miss out. Eat some food because I really enjoy "exploring", there's honeycombs and kebab in Turkey, ramen and sushi in Japan, traditional Beijing steamboat, some spicy food in India and Middle East, Italian risotto, pasta and pizza, America's Cheese Cake Factory, Korean kimchi which I really dont like and a couple more again.

I've been home a couple times, ok, many many times. So many times that people who work abroad don't usually get to go back that often. My grandmother passed away. My whole family growing closer to each other. Making money well. Get to be best friends with my first love. Playing League of Legends with my German buddies and loving it.

Honestly, I've fallen. So through it all, it isn't worth it. I'm not really me anymore, I kinda lost myself. I want to go back, but there's no place I can go but remain where I am. I can't go back like "Daddy I wanna study." and go back and support myself. I won't have income, I can't focus on my studies, I won't be able to be active in church, I can't really do much. At the age of 21, I reached the point of no return.

2012, I hope you are kind to me, I'll try my best to do what I can. Don't want to waste my youth away, want to do something good.