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Michael Bublé - Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Seriously Homesick

I hate to admit it, but ever since coming back from home, I am not feeling very good inside. I have this feeling in my gut, which I really dislike. I think my sister is probably the only thing that is making me feel better in Singapore. I don't like this job, which makes my life in Singapore really bad. I don't enjoy the job, people always say, its very nice that you can travel all around the world or wow you're working with SIA or thats a lot of money for your age and qualifications, but I guess they really don't know unless they are there or I am just too weak. I hate the bond, which is 13,800 Singapore Dollars, and is close to RM30k. I don't know how long I can take it, and Herman's situation is really encouraging me. I am not trying to demotivate myself here, but I am just saying out my feelings. How is ah mei gonna feel once I am gone? How is mummy and daddy gonna think about me for being such a quitter? But somehow I really cannot take this, it feels bad.

I really do feel like calling my mum and begging her to let me go home, I am feeling very down.

Home

It felt great being home, from 22/2-27/2. My schedule was packed, since day 1 until the last day, from morning until night.

On day 1, I reached Kuching around 4pm, on the plane with me was my sis, Calvyn and his father, and also my sis' batch boy. Once we reached there, mummy hasn't even came. When we called her, she told us she was washing the car. OMG, can you believe it? Both her children has come back from a foreign country after months, and she is washing the car! Well doesn't matter. At night, I had dinner with GIFC. Anderson came to fetch me, yep you saw right, ANDERSON CAME TO FETCH ME, ANDERSON DRIVING HIS CAR! So we had the gathering at the Lok Lok place behind Kuching High. I ate like RM26 and I wasn't even full, so expensive and bohua! And I owe Kok Yuen the money, because I was loaded with Singapore Dollars and zero on Ringgit. Must remember to pay him back. After that, the 3 Musketeers + 1 went to Gizmo to play L4D2. Since I never played the new maps, The Sacrifice and The Passing. The unfortunate thing was, they keep on chiong, so I didn't really had much fun, but at least I can't say that I never played the map before.

On day 2, which was a Wednesday, I watched The Mechanic with the 3 Musketeers again. Jason Statham, one would expect something more of him, but it wasn't that bad a movie either. There's the gay part where they were gonna "fix" another mechanic, that really got us going "Eeeee~". Then at night, had dinner with my family and then we went to visit my grandma at Normah. She's been there since before CNY. I didn't knew what to think or how to feel at the moment of the time, either that everything is normal because she is old or to feel very worried because it's been quite a many times she's been in the hospital.

On the 3rd day, I had the privilege to have Calvyn bringing and accompanying me shopping and having my haircut. Went around Sarawak Plaza, Tun Jugah and Parkson with shoes as my priority, but couldn't even get 1. In the end, got myself 2 t-shirts and some shoe polisher. Also, Tun Jugah is 60% empty on the 2nd floor and only Popular left on the 3rd floor, poor Tun Jugah.

At night, brought my parents to watch I Love Hong Kong 2011. It was very very funny, my favorite part would be the front part where they all pretended to be ghost, amazing hahahaha. When we were leaving the cinema, we met ah mei the betrayer with her friends, she hadn't answer any of our calls all day long and said she didn't bring her phone with her. After the movie with my parents, I went to Isabella with part of GIFC. We played cards and chatted, and I treated everyone for the night. Also I spent the night at Calvyn's place.

On Friday, went with Calvyn to Saberkas in search of some pc stuff, Ngage and shoes. I bought a pair of speakers and 3 pairs of shoes. After that, I went to Charles' home and we went to H&L to shop for our steamboat's ingredients. Then we went prayer meeting. I'm glad that I am still able to worship God freely, to be able to speak in tongue. At a point, my tears even came out. This is indeed home, this is indeed my church. After PM, was the steamboat and bbq. It was awesome, except that, I felt, there wasn't enough food, I kept on saying "should have bought more food". Funny thing was, we were using charcoal from the last time that we bbq, which was 4 months ago, left behind in the barrel and we still manage to cook the chicken wings to perfection, praise God for that. That night we slept at 3am.

In the morning, we went to have breakfast at Starbucks and I actually had a 20% discount using my Swinburne student ID, lucky I didn't return it. Then we went to One Jaya since I never been into the building since it's opening. Nothing special, didn't even manage to go to the top floor. Afternoon went to LG, it felt that there was less people. The theme was "Compromise". It was a great theme, a great reminder for me, since coming to Singapore, I had indeed compromise many things and it's time I take them back. At night, had dinner with my parents at San Francisco Grill, which is just next to the Lok Lok place. My dad said he used to bring my mum here every year during her birthday, because of the atmosphere. After dinner, went out with my secondary school gang to Isabella, but the place was full, so we went to Day Dream instead, which was just next door. We played pool and my skills really suck, haven't played in a long time. We were one of the last to leave the place. Kiong still owe me money hahahaha.

The next day was also the last day, Sunday. It was raining, ever since last night, the feeling on the bed was incredible, so comfortable, so familiar. I was too tired, so I missed WFL and also went to SS late. When I was there, it was already the Holy Communion, it meant a lot to me to be able to partake the bread and wine. After shepherding, went home to take lunch because mummy insisted to cook for me, to let me have a home cook meal. I ate for more than an hour trying to finish everything and trust me it was a huge portion with 5 dishes, red wine chicken, ginger beef, fried fish egg, oyster sauce vege and soup. Then I went to pack and be ready to return to Singapore.

I didn't want anyone to send me off, because it would be very hard for me. I was never good with goodbyes. I was very reluctant to leave, because of the love and welcome I received. But then I remembered how I left in the first place. And also, that coming back was suppose to motivate me, to push me on so I can continue my work in Singapore. It's not that bad, in fact, if I look at it this way, I can go back every month if I wanted to. I want to leave as if I never left the place, so no goodbyes, because I'll be BACK!

Finally, I'm Going Home

I miss Kuching so much. Everything I love is there, the people I love, the place that I had known my whole life. I left behind so many things there, including many of my problems. This time, when I'm going back, there are so many things I want to do, such as shopping, so many things I want to buy, clothes, pc accessories, play with my pets, get a haircut, return my dad his money, go play L4D and L4D2 new maps, watch movies, and of course the most important thing, mend my problems, my broken relationships.

I am so glad that I will be going home =D

Birthday, so what?

Yeah, its that once a year occasion again. Ever since coming to Singapore, all these occasions mean little to me, Christmas, New Year, Chinese New Year, birthday. My favorite would definitely been Chinese New Year, but this year, not only did I spent it in London, I also spent it getting zapped like crazy by a lousy gay. However, birthdays have never been my thing, never been fond of them, so it doesn't matter to me if there's a celebration or not.

I'd be happy just with my laptop.

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