Brb, not Goodbye

Im leaving this place with a heavy heart. The place that I have grown up in, the place that I had known my whole life, the place that I had loved so much. The place where everyone I know lives, the place where everyone I love and treasure lives in.

Even with all the farewells, with all the hugs and wishes I receive. I dont really feel like talking, because in my heart, Im just counting my days until I leave. I dont really feel like talking, because in my heart, I dont really feel like Im leaving.

Everything is gonna be like a brb, not a goodbye. I'll be back in 5 years, its a promise!

The Prodigal Son

Luke 15:11-32 (New International Version)

The Parable of the Lost Son

¹¹Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. ¹²The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.

¹³"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. ¹⁴After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. ¹⁵So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. ¹⁶He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

¹⁷"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! ¹⁸I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. ¹⁹I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.'²⁰So he got up and went to his father.
"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

²¹"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.

²²"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet.²³Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. ²⁴For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

²⁵"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. ²⁶So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. ²⁷'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

²⁸"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. ²⁹But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. ³⁰But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

³¹" 'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. ³²But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' "

Taken from http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke+15:11-32&version=NIV

iPawnZombies

Just like in Left 4 Dead 1 & 2, I pawned you in Plants Vs Zombies. Now just real life left, waiting for your challenge.

Amidst Times of Busyness

Dear God, may you add strength and wisdom to all my bros and sis. That no matter how busy he/she is, he/she will continue to remember that You are his/her Lord and that You are in control over everything. In the midst of his/her busyness, give him/her Your joy and excitement to persist on in everything that he/she does. Thank You Lord. In Jesus Name. Amen

What did He say to you (Church Camp)

I know we would be sharing it in coming cg, but I wanted to post here anyways. Since not many people will see it, and its also good to share it here too.


So here's mine:


新酒要装在新酒皮袋里。


During saturday night ministering, after Ps Wilson's teaching. There was an alter call about the gift of prophecy. I quickly ran down and to the front, right hand side of Pastor Wilson. I was one of the first there.


I really wanted it, not for myself, but for Jesus, and also His people. I wanted to be the bridge, to connect God's Word, God's will, God's heart to people.


As I was one of the first, I was at the first row, Ps Lai Ling Lim was just in front of me. At first I was a little disappointed because she didnt pray for me, but I knew, I was praying to God, He was the one who gives. Later a brother came to pray for me. Somehow, he knew my hunger, how eager I was, how much I wanted it. And he also told me, be close to God. "Be close to God", this was the same message given to me by many previous prayers by other brothers and sisters. I am not sure if I have received it, thats why I kept quiet and stayed back. In my heart, I kept the faith that God had already given it to me.


On my way home, after sending Charles and Leong Ling home, after discussing some problems with them, I realised that my life and many things around me are actually not that "bright" or "good" or "optimistic". Everything seems crumbling, and in the process crushing me.


So how is all this related to "新酒要装在新酒皮袋里"? New wine, is the anointing of God, which is also the Gift. And as you guessed it, I am the wine skin. I need to be new too, if I want to receive the gift. And new wine cannot be put in old wine skin as it will break. So I prayed to God. Turn me new, newer than before, because I really need it. I need it so I can accommodate the new wine, I want to be the new wine skin!

Bugging me lately

Something's inside my head, bugging me lately. It was all because of a dream, that had rekindled this troublesome feeling. Why must it always be dreams? The 1st time, the 2nd time, and now the 3rd time.

Though I dont remember what or how the dream was, but I clearly remember who the dream was about. Yeah, its my dream girl again, again.

Why~ Why~ I have to ask... Now Im like stalker mode and all weird again. This is not a good sign and definitely not good for my current situation at all.

It's impossible, dream for a reason, because its impossible. More impossible than normal impossible that we normally speak about. I thought I had already let it go, but all it took was another dream.

I have other priorities, other things that are more important that I need to focus at, but why... I dont need this, geez...

Anyways, I wanna type this down sort of like a journal, so I can read back and recall the past events of my teenage life.

Should I bang my head against the wall?

Problems, problems, problems. I'm sure everybody hates them, but somehow, they always seems t bounce back to you. I know its kinda naive thinking, why everything wouldn't just go smoothly.

So now, I present to you, my problems.

1. There's a few assignments that gonna be due next week, and without Flash, Illustrator and Photoshop, I couldn't do a thing without them. So if I cant do it at home, I'll just do it in school. With my ID problem, couldn't access the open labs and I have to go 6th floor and bla bla bla, but I couldn't, because I have to change my ID to the new one (foundation -> degree), but that would take a long time. Then I borrowed Calvyn's ID. So I went school, made 3 rounds around the place just to look for a parking space. Guess what, open labs have no Photoshop, no Illustrator and no Flash, and the Multimedia open lab is not so "open" with lecturer's always using it for classes.

2. Its never easy being a shepherd, and lately, seems like some BGR problems coming up. Now how am I gonna talk to them about it? Will they open up? Will it be settled? Can I really help them? How will they feel if I keep asking them about the matter?

I'm not being ungrateful or negative or what. I'm just addressing the facts and figuring a way to solve them. If you can help me, especially with problem 1 (you have Photoshop, Illustrator and Flash CS4), please do, because I really really really need it!